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- i won the powerball - http://politicaltears.multiply.com/ NOTHING is really INTIMIDATING here// but CRAP in my HEAD// so feel FREE to CRASH in Fri, 22 Aug 2008 18:07:44 -0000 Wed, 23 Jul 2008 09:11:57 -0000 - i won the powerball - http://images.politicaltears.multiply.com/logo http://politicaltears.multiply.com 100 100 [parenting] significant lines so far “welcome to the world of parenting, you never know what you gonna get” –bos sayasaya: alright bos! “rasanya kayak baru waktu mendarat di bandara melbourne nggak sih? nggak tau apa-apa tapi excited, seneng banget tapi clueless, norak dan got lots of hope with no guarantee, campur aduk ya!” – suami saya: hiks hiks melbourne, I would have stroll down the city with Nami if only I still lived in that city where my heart belongs to. Agak lebay ya nggak apa. “gimana? hahahahahahahaha! dah mulai bingung di rumah terus? dah mulai kesel ngeliat suami pulang kerja ketawa-ketawa? what? gue kira lo lebih tough dari gue!” –teman baik saya: *sigh she’s damn right “kalo asinya kurang, kasih tambahan aja bu!”- oknum suster di hospital cinere saya: balik ke kamar dan mewek “yah begitulah jadi ibu, kamu bayangin aja dulu mama, gaji papa ngepas, anak tiga, pembantu satu, harus ke pasar, anak sakit, rumah belum rapi, harus masak, papa lagi ke luar kota berbulan-bulan”- ibu saya saya:... http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/40/parenting_significant_lines_so_far Wed, 23 Jul 2008 09:11:57 -0000 motherhood <a href="http://politicaltears.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SH1yIAoKCsQAAHvVBog1"><img border="0" class="alignright" src="http://images.politicaltears.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SH1yIAoKCsQAAHvVBog1/ibusui.jpg?et=kLU9SAWLA75etXHneakuGw&nmid=0"></a>July 5th, 2008 it's my birthdayi am a motheri don't know what to say http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/39/motherhood Wed, 16 Jul 2008 04:01:38 -0000 perkenalkan <a href="http://politicaltears.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SH1t@QoKCsQAADgmhhg1"><img border="0" class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.politicaltears.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SH1t@QoKCsQAADgmhhg1/nami1.jpg?et=57JmtgLP7yWk77eg9%2CGtvA&nmid=0"></a><a href="http://politicaltears.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SH1t2woKCsQAADxuztE1"><img border="0" class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.politicaltears.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SH1t2woKCsQAADxuztE1/nami.jpg?et=GNm%2BVXdStpCR1hx0c%2BVYrQ&nmid=0"></a>HANAMI ATALIA SUDARTO Jenis kelamin : Perempuan Lahir : 28 Juni 2008, 12.57 siang Berat : 3,050 kg Panjang : 49 cm Proses kelahiran : SC di Hospital Cinere http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/38/perkenalkan Wed, 16 Jul 2008 03:50:24 -0000 want it badly <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SAvSMQoKCsQAAEom86U1"><img class="alignright" src="http://images.politicaltears.multiply.com/image/2/photos/upload/300x300/SAvSMQoKCsQAAEom86U1/lia%20lines1.JPG?et=zT4ccgjpgfaIbaX2mWGOdQ&nmid=" border="0"></a>there are days when you really want to be teleported to a place you long because you miss it and want it badly and you start to make this kind of move. sigh http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/37/want_it_badly Sun, 20 Apr 2008 23:34:08 -0000 high five me <img class="alignright" src="http://images.politicaltears.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/R4M0dAoKCsQAADv1MfM1/preggy%20mommy%202.gif?et=%2B2BQRxAhICklsV1Z9ntgVQ&nmid=" border="0">I’m sorry for the indomie the other day, also for forgetting to take vitamin, and also for the milk I haven’t drunk regularly. And sorry for the pressure you might have experienced because of me was trying to catch up with the deadline and all those stressing out moments at work. I have got lots of feeling about you since the first time you were there and it’s been 14 weeks but I just couldn’t put them on words. But today I’m telling you that I love you whatever, whoever you are, it’s an unconditional one and this time sure for real. You have stolen my heart. I’m enjoying every second of every unique moment we are experiencing together and I hope you are. High five. http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/36/high_five_me Tue, 8 Jan 2008 08:37:46 -0000 life’s great so far: a letter to somewhat i long <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/Rwx9MgoKCs0AADQc-1Y1"><img class="alignmiddle" src="http://images.politicaltears.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/Rwx9MgoKCs0AADQc-1Y1/frankie_wallpaper-133.jpg?et=Zoc2tS2J4JqMlZPr24xiWQ" border="0"></a>   there’re some mornings, I wake up, turn off the aircon, open the window, chilling wind and sun strike directly into my bedroom, I could breathe the smell of you. after sipping my breakfast tea and done with all those morning clichés, I would drive straight to the office listening to those funny mostly cheeky morning radio show. If the smell followed me to the office, as soon as I got to my desk I quickly plug my ipod in, click on those breathtaking songs, close my eyes and enjoying the pain. and then they would call me a sick freak drama queen. I don’t care. It’s not pretentious thing I would do. at least I didn’t mean it even it’s judged like one. I need to stress this because I hate pretentious people, pretentious writings, pretentious fashion spread and daily doze of pretentious gesture of my boss. bugger off. maybe it’s not you, meaning: not all about you. maybe I miss being secluded, I miss being selfish, nothing to worry about except myself and my husband, wh... http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/35/35 Wed, 10 Oct 2007 07:22:36 -0000 saya, viga, cindy dan gravitasi ooooh deadline menjepit pit pit now i’m soooo wanna go home ditemani bau majalah baru dengan cover yang masih hangat dan AC yang dingin i’m so wanna cigarette n wine by the yarra river ooohh langit yang ketumpahan cat air wondering why gravity is working against me gravity wants to bring me down.   anyway…   kemarin ketemuan sama viga di vietopia senopati. teman baik dari SMA. udah lama banget nggak ketemu, kayaknya terakhir tahun lalu pas baru balik dari melbourne. anyway, setelah update sana-sini, si ini baru melahirkan anaknya lucu kayak boneka, si anu ternyata udah cerai, si itu committed untuk jadi istri ke-dua, teman sukses jadi chef kelas dunia dan another updating yang apa pun itu friends turn to be tetap aja we all friends. cheers.   ngobrol lanjut tentang bagaimana kami sepakat bahwa olahraga dan keringat adalah kenikmatan sampai ke topik tentang pemalas [saya juga nggak ngerti kenapa dua kata itu jadi berdekatan]. pencarian [denial counting to 30’s] bebera... http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/34/saya_viga_cindy_dan_gravitasi Fri, 10 Aug 2007 07:25:42 -0000 | | | <A href="http://politicaltears.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/RrFckQoKCnsAAH2@NGw1"><IMG class=alignleft style="WIDTH: 238px; HEIGHT: 257px" height=163 src="http://images.politicaltears.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/RrFckQoKCnsAAH2@NGw1/frankie_wallpaper-13.jpg?et=hJUFlU8TawGAoc%2BXRt5lQA" width=280 border=0></A> i like to watch you sleep at night, to hear you breathe by my side         010804/010807 i thank you http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/32/_ Thu, 2 Aug 2007 04:26:28 -0000 apakah merasa lebih baik setelah meLAWAN? + ya- tidak ada pertanyaan lagi. terima kasih. http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/30/apakah_merasa_lebih_baik_setelah_meLAWAN Tue, 31 Jul 2007 01:44:19 -0000 what do you like to think about <A href="http://politicaltears.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/RqlotwoKCnsAACutdd81"><IMG class=alignright src="http://images.politicaltears.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/RqlotwoKCnsAACutdd81/frankie_wallpaper-14.jpg?et=yQP3KzEyvrtEp1OglcowEQ" border=0></A>  kalau sedang terjebak dalam situasi harus duduk sendiri [seperti: sedang menyetir, duduk di kendaraan umum, atau menunggu giliran] dan tidak ada pilihan hal lain untuk dilakukan [seperti:mendengarkan musik atau baca], apa yang asik untuk dilakukan? saya senang memikirkan hal-hal yang asik [bukan perlu] untuk dipikirkan. hehehe. di circumstances yang seringnya secure seperti belakangan ini :p, asik untuk memikirkan hal-hal yang bisa menimbulkan insecurity [moral of the story :p]. here are:   1. ittinerary perjalanan ada tawaran untuk jalan-jalan. tujuan ke tempat yang belum pernah dikunjungi atau ke yang udah pernah dan asik untuk dikunjungi lagi. temen jalan ada, duit ada, tiket, akomodasi dan visa clear. tinggal menyusun rencana perjalanan dari hari ke hari. wuuuhuuu.   2. mau nulis apa? temen nawarin bikin tulisan di medianya. dibayar, topik asik dan panjang tulisan ditentukan tapi gaya dan isi tulisan terserah. yummy.   3. membuat kombinasi sesuai suasana mis... http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/29/what_do_you_like_to_think_about Wed, 25 Jul 2007 08:03:13 -0000 ketidakberdayaan mengontrol body Kalau kemarin itu dokter nggak mengijinkan saya keluar dari rumah sakit, seriously saya mau ngabur. 5 hari di rumah sakit cukup membuat saya meraih puncak emosi pada diri sendiri. Ketidakmampuan mengontrol body, saya rasa adalah salah satu ketidakenakan yang harus diterima. Siapa juga yang pengen trombosit merosot dan pusing yang meyiksa mendera terus-menerus. Nggak ada tombol yang bisa ditekan untuk menghentikannya. Tapi [melayu banget], saya jadi berkesempatan untuk menghela nafas sejenak dan melihat sekeliling. Setelah travelling 2 minggu waktu itu, saya cuman istirahat satu hari dan langsung didera pekerjaan dan kebetulan divisi saya bebannya sedang meningkat ketika saya baru saja bergabung. Sekarang saya baru dapat space, merapikan lagi folder-folder di komputer, menamai ulang file-file foto yang berantakan sambil dengerin musik santai plus teh hangat di tempat tidur. Hmmm, luxury. Saya memang sudah lama tidak sakit berat jadi kemarin ini ketemu lagi dengan dokter, suster ... http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/28/ketidakberdayaan_mengontrol_body Wed, 6 Jun 2007 10:38:44 -0000 i heart frankie magz please note that this writing contain of exaggerating materials. A letter to Frankie magazine. Dear Frankie, I heart you. You always bloody fecking make my day. You adore the quirkiness of life and I heart that. Especially in this 17 issue, I heart almost every page of you. The ed’s note has always been my favorite. I heart the pictures, Julia your photographer is a champ. And I heart of course the artwork. The feature about fatherhood and lovers are smartly written. And I heart the feature about festival around the world. The political feature is also written happy sad fun. The highlight is feature about the horrific plastic clogs. I heart you Heart Heart Heart www.frankie.com.au http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/27/i_heart_frankie_magz Wed, 23 May 2007 03:44:16 -0000 will you ever loved diamond or gold whatsoever? Saya dan teman saya ini selalu menghargai kegelisahan kecil dan terkadang konyol yang sering menyerang dengan tiba-tiba dan ingin diulik sesegera mungkin. So we share that a lot, intellectually indeed. :p Krik krik krik. Yang saya lakukan sih simply call her dan dia akan meluncur segera, jika waktunya oke tentunya, dan vice versa. Sejam kemudian kita sudah terduduk nyaman di sebuah gerai kopi untuk sarapan. “Kita bakal sampe di point that we are craving for perhiasan, meaning: gold, diamond, pearl, dll nggak sih?” “Bisa aja, banyak tuh temen gue yang udah hafal jenis-jenisnya, kalo orang lewat pake diamond, dia tahu orang itu pake jenis apa, berapa karatnya, beli di mana, halus atau nggak, dll lah.” “Iya, itu by umur, by penghasilan atau by apa? Kayak dulu gue tahan suara penyiar yang jerit2, okelah. Sekarang penyiar abg yang sorak-sorak nggak jelas, tiba-tiba semua rasanya runtuh meniban gue.” “Hmmm, by apa ya? Social construction may be?” “Yah semua juga gitu. So how they can ... http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/26/will_you_ever_loved_diamond_or_gold_whatsoever Thu, 10 May 2007 04:17:06 -0000 cuddle cuddling cuddled tokyo Why cuddle? Dari jendela pesawat pas akan mendarat di Airport Narita Tokyo, saya rasanya udah pengen lompat lewat jendela, menggulung-gulung badan di kota yang literary cantik ini. Lantaran dari kejauhan sudah kelihatan Tokyo memasuki Spring. Saya sangat beruntung, pas masuk Tokyo bunga Sakura baru saja mekar, dan ketika meninggalkannya, mulai berguguran, kayak di film silat lah. It's so pretty. Hanya 2 minggu dalam setahun bunga ini bersolek. Cuma 12 hari di sana, rasanya saya beneran bermanja-manja dengan kota ini. Anyway ini baru sebagian cerita dan foto, karena yang lain need to be commercialized dulu, harus dijaga eksklusivitasnya. Haha. Harus balik modal dong. :) Tokyo: checked ah. http://politicaltears.multiply.com/photos/album/15/cuddle_cuddling_cuddled_tokyo Thu, 26 Apr 2007 14:55:48 -0000 office sick Been away from office routines for almost a year, I find it hard to readjust. Di hari ke dua, saya ketiduran di meja kerja, for at least 3 minute kesadaran saya hilang dari muka meja. Apalagi udara Jakarta lagi bersahabat dengan sleepy head seperti saya. Hari itu to be honest saya cuci muka 4 kali aja. Belum lagi badan harus adaptasi dengan tuntutan untuk duduk berjam-jam dan melototin layar komputer. Oh iya, apalagi sekarang ini tempat kerja saya masuknya jam 8, pulang officially jam 4 dan hari sabtu masuk setengah hari. Pingsan dulu. Ngapain sabtu masuk? Olahraga. Officially dead. Kerjaannya sih saya suka banget. Merestruktur logika bertutur. Fasilitas kantor lumayan unik. Ada gym dengan alat yang lumayan mutakhir, klinik dan obat gratis, perpustakaan berkoleksi buku bahasa Inggris, dari Asterix sampai TIMES, makan siang disediakan dan gajian 2 minggu sekali, kayak di luar negeri aja. Duit 100ribu di dompet, seminggu aja nggak habis. Woohoo. Tapi jenis pekerjaan saya untuk sebagi... http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/24/office_sick Thu, 26 Apr 2007 10:35:05 -0000 non speaking english i have to say that traveling to non-speaking-english country is frustrating. i`ve been to thailand, they barely speak english but most of them especially who works at public service area [subways, mrt, etc] at least understand english. but at the moment in tokyo, the most developed country in the world, with advance technology, digital buttons at public toilet, anyone? they hardly speak english. i have to express doggy face when i asked for chilli at local mc. donalds. i felt stupid, i don`t get my chilli and pissed off. and the gong is: the keep talking in japanese eventhough you obviously don`t understand what they`re talking about. call me gadis pemarah kurang penyabar, but trust me it is frustrating. of course local students they learn english at school but there`s no chance seeing them since it`s now school holiday in japan. and the youngsters, they understand very little. i was at harajuku the other day, i thought, hmmh, may be today is the day meeting english speaking youngsters... http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/23/non_speaking_english Tue, 3 Apr 2007 02:47:31 -0000 google earth i know google earth from -the interesting, inspiring, addictive- frankie magazine. one of the questions in the interview with hot hot heat was,"do you like google earth?" what the hell was google earth here? well, i'm sorry. i'm not a business review journal reader or whatever those sophisticated journal but let's put it simple: this is one of the example how frankie educates me. wink. it tickled me so then i googled immediately. [how amazing google now is a verb and as well as word "rock", let's rock this, lets rock that, and eventhough i hardly use it but i'm definetly gonna stop put the word "rock" as a verb from now on because it's sound yikes after a while]. apparently with google earth i can have a look at my flat back in melbourne. yeah the technology makes it possible for you to have an aerial view of everything that sticks on earth. so i was happily jumping on my chair [not sofa] that i can see my flat there, the street i used to stroll down, the station, the parks everything.... http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/21/google_earth Mon, 8 Jan 2007 06:25:14 -0000 oh this scene stupid mobile phone alarm is shouting out loud. oh no, 7.30am, go shower, and catch the train, shit!! bye-kiss hubby and quickly lock the door. i'm off. 10 minutes to the next train. i walk down to the station, routine view: doggies gathering in the park and people in business suite busy with their blackberry, catching same train. blue sky, morning fresh air, plug ipod on and take one long deep breath. a w a k e. a smile to a barrista, took first zip of my cheap coffee. train is coming. hop in and then a quick scan find an empty seat. none. ok i'll survive. hop off. quickly run, catch the tram. latrobe st, hop off. Tin's already there. "you're late! quick have your smoke" "fine!" "what time you finish today?" "it's thursday, i do closing" "fuck, you better be awake" "i know" "let's go,we're late" "wait, where is my hat and apron?" "ah you, here, use mine! i'll talk to him!" "sorry, i was in a hurry" "whatever!" end *i thought phrase "get over " does exist. it might does but it hasn't. http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/19/oh_this_scene Mon, 6 Nov 2006 08:41:22 -0000 [mang awang] mang awang is the man. http://politicaltears.multiply.com/photos/album/10/mang_awang Wed, 20 Sep 2006 13:01:42 -0000 what they called d e t a i l s grand palace, thailand, 2006. wonder, amaze, stunning, you name it. http://politicaltears.multiply.com/photos/album/9/what_they_called_d_e_t_a_i_l_s Sat, 16 Sep 2006 12:21:37 -0000 takut suatu hari TAKUT datang mengetuk pintu. membukakan pintu lalu mempersilakan masuk dan bercengkerama, membiasakan diri dengan kehadirannya ATAU bersilat lidah, beradu logika dan langsung mengusirnya jauh-jauh saat itu juga? ketika overhead 25% omset :-) http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/18/takut Wed, 13 Sep 2006 11:00:25 -0000 [.........] that we're in our most conscious ages we didn't have same measurement of time and space we didn't have same start line to race together that you're not mature enough to look at difference that you are not you were it didn't work out anymore and all the shit shit am angry for something that is happening to a very good person, honestly http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/17/......... Thu, 24 Aug 2006 14:44:28 -0000 mixed-sy feeling http://politicaltears.multiply.com/photos/album/8/mixed-sy_feeling Mon, 14 Aug 2006 09:35:31 -0000 muka pahit jujur aja, memang ada kenikmatan tersendiri nggak ngeliat muka orang susah. i know some people might get annoyed by me saying this. i'm not trying to be such a pemerhati sosial bitch. minggu pertama saya nggak ngerasa terlalu susah. semua sudah diperkirakan dengan training ala kadar tapi pasti sebelum kembali ke mari. segala keluhan yang berbau infrastruktur sampai nyamuk [yang termasuk infrastruktur juga -got terbuka- tapi harus saya pisahkan karena emang saya punya relationship yang agak spesial dengannya], bisa lah di talangi. kalo ada satu hal yang agak mengagetkan dan nggak saya antisipasi adalah ekspresi orang sekitar, yang ada di ruang publik maksudnya. ini memang kebiasaan saya yang belakangan sempat berjalan lancar, memperhatikan human behaviour. dan kesimpualnnya atas kebiasaan yang masih saya teruskan ini adalah: life was much nicer ternyata kalo nggak ngeliat orang-orang yang nongkrong nggak jelas di pinggir jalan atau kenek yang bolak-bolik ngitung lembaran rupiah padahal ... http://politicaltears.multiply.com/journal/item/16/muka_pahit Mon, 14 Aug 2006 09:16:29 -0000 live, life, alive it's been more than a year. friends's been asking how i live, the place, what's happening, etc. i've been promising that i'll take pics and show them, but of course bullshit. now that i have more than enough time to do this. and i'm leaving this place aswell, sad but excited. http://politicaltears.multiply.com/photos/album/6/live_life_alive Sun, 5 Mar 2006 02:19:47 -0000 syd in lomo filter mode just got a pack of filter for lomo, but i used them in my digi instead. crazy pics. http://politicaltears.multiply.com/photos/album/4/syd_in_lomo_filter_mode Sat, 25 Feb 2006 06:28:37 -0000